Tuesday Morning !!!!!!!

Today was a mad dash to make it to work on-time. I forgot to set my coffee maker last night, and I slept past my alarm, so I had to shuffle my morning routine around a bit. Then my youngest tells me, as I’m headed out the door that she can’t taste the leftover pizza she was having for breakfast. Had to halt everything and check her taste, and thankfully her sense of taste is still there, it was just some very bland pizza. 😂

I’m thankful for a few small things that turned out to be very valuable things on my rushed morning. Im thankful for the spray bottle of windshield de-icer that Joe B bought and put in my car. Got my windshield clear and my car on the road 5 minutes sooner.

I’m thankful for this big thermos that Joe B and the girls gave me for Christmas a few years ago. ❤️ It was clutch today, as I didn’t have my usual time at home to enjoy my coffee.

I’m thankful for the first coffee mug I grabbed out of my cabinet that says “Rise and Shine”, a Christmas gift from my sister. Reminded me to greet every student that went through my hallway and I got several “have a nice day”s back from students. ❤️

I’m thankful for my job, that I get to be in the bldg and part of a wonderful team who demonstrate their dedication to students and their learning and their wellness everyday.

I’m thankful for my family and friends that lighten my spirits and bring laughter and light.❤️

Have a great Tuesday!

Gut Health and Healing From A Cellular Level

Some of the lifestyle changes I’m in the process making are about my health, and not necessarily about losing weight. I want my body to heal and to become strong from the inside out. I want to heal at a cellular level, if that helps explain my mindset. My desire to make positive change feels that deep. I’m making changes for healing my body, my mind and my spirit.

I’m not about making huge sweeping changes and being obsessive about cutting out types of foods. Except for artificial sweetener. That’s gone for good. I am absolutely loving being without artificial sweeteners. It’s 3 weeks now since I gave it up. I continue to not have sugar cravings. When I do eat something sweet, it’s a deliberate decision. Not one based on stress or other emotions. I am finding though that I am indulging in sweets very little. It’s really nice not to feel like I’m fighting cravings all the time. That was getting so frustrating. It was like a weight hanging around my neck that I couldn’t shake. That weight is gone and so is any guilt about indulging occasionally. The cravings being gone gives me some space in my head to think about whether I really want something, and also has helped my creativity in coming up with sweet treats made from real food when I want to indulge.

I’ve also been asking questions via FB messenger of a former coworker, a dietician, about artificial sweeteners. She told me how some artificial sweeteners can change the Ph in your gut, and may kill gut bacteria. Losing gut bacteria may lead to some gut permeability and then inflammation. In my case, inflammation leads to increased hip pain, but I also learned that it’s a big risk factor for heart disease and chronic conditions like type 2 diabetes, and possibly lupus and RA.

So then I had to look up “gut permeability” and found out it’s called “leaky gut syndrome”. I’d heard of it before but had no clue what it was. What I read wasn’t fun. But it made sense to me. That’s a whole ‘nother blog post because it’s very science-y. But it made me realize how quitting artificial sweeteners is the beginning of the healing process for my gut.

I remain surprised and grateful for the huge difference I’ve felt in my hip pain since giving up artificial sweetener. And if it’s related to healing my gut, then I want more of that. I’ve began drinking kombucha since last fall, and this weekend I’m going to give bone broth a whirl. Plain Greek yogurt is always in my fridge, as well as fruits, veggies, and healthy fats like avocados and nuts.

Friends and family, you have no idea how thankful I feel to finally start feeling better. I have a spring in my step for the first time in a long time. My mood has improved. And I appreciate the taste of food so much more than before. The changes feel good. And there are more changes we’ve been making that I will write about soon. Drop a comment below if you have had similar experiences. I would love to hear your stories.

Self-Care


I had a really good conversation with a friend a few weeks ago at a powwow in Durant, OK. Part of the discussion was about self-care. How important it is, and the different ways she has found to do this for herself. 

My boss and colleagues talk about self-care. We are therapists so it’s vitally important to us and our clients that we stay healthy: physically, mentally and emotionally. Speaking only for myself, I add spiritual health to the list. Self-care is for everyone because we all have our own stress that is unique to each one of us. 

I honestly used to believe that self-care meant a pedicure or massage, or making sure I get a workout in. Massages and pedicures cost money, and many times I don’t want to spend the money. Sometimes I’m too tired or busy to workout, or it feels too strenuous to be self-care….sometimes it seems like self-torture, and who wants to do that? 

After we got our dog, I quickly discovered how therapeutic a loving dog truly is. He loves to snuggle, as the picture shows. I can always feel my stress melt away when he, and now our 2nd dog Sissy, come running to greet me after work. I realized how much our big puppies contribute to our wellbeing and how they contribute to our self-care needs. 

So here is another bulleted list, this time of self-care ideas. Some from my friend and some I’ve discovered myself. And most of them cost little to nothing except time. 

  • Coffee at home in quiet and solitude 
  • Reading a book
  • Taking a walk
  • Walking or snuggling my big puppies 
  • Having friends/family over for a simple breakfast/lunch/dinner
  • Watching a TedTalk on YouTube
  • Taking a bath. I did this recently and used Epsom Salts, lavender oil, a pure beeswax candle, and played my music on a Bluetooth speaker
  • Actually picking up the phone and calling a friend or family member to visit. So much better than texting. 
  • Sitting outside in the evening after it’s dark and looking at the sky
  • Using a meditation app
  • Getting out of the house to do something not work or housework related – go watch a youth or high school or local college game
  • Check out a new walking path in your city
  • Laugh
  • Dance 
  • Bake something from scratch and enjoy with a cup of your favorite hot beverage
  • Write in a journal 
  • Breathing exercises
  • Self-massage techniques
  • Go to a meeting (if in a 12-Step program)
  • Plan a game night with friends
  • USE the fancy coffee mug for your morning coffee
  • Visit your local library
  • Paint ceramics
  • Color with crayons or markers or pencils, either free-hand or a coloring book
  • Have a morning ritual that involves spirituality and gratitude 
  • Make a new music playlist 

These are just some ideas that I hope gets people thinking about how they can take care of themselves. I’ve learned the importance of nourishing not only my body, but my mind, my heart and my spirit. I can’t be my best for my family or my job if I ignore what I need. 

Morning Ramblings

I’ve been feeling the urge to write again. But my mind is going in several different directions at once. I’m just going to list all the thoughts as they come to me. 

  • As soon as I hit the bulleted list button for this entry, my mind went blank
  • I need a long extended break from the news for self-care purposes 
  • I made flash cards yesterday of Dakota words and phrases 
  • We have 2 dogs now, and they are loved like my human children
  • I love Twitter accounts that make me laugh and inspire me 
  • Reading is a joy
  • Every woman of color should read Iyanla VanZant’s book “Peace From the Broken Pieces”
  • I didn’t realize how much I needed to recognize, accept, and let go of until my life became unmanageable
  • Gratitude is real and valuable
  • I love my babies
  • I wonder how annoying and preachy I used to be on social media 
  • I am beginning to understand what “self-care” really is and to make sure I do it
  • Self care doesn’t always mean shelling out $$ for massages. 
  • Fear has been the basis for much of my thought processes and decisions for years
  • I thought about giving up coffee and just drinking tea 
  • I give up that thought within moments of having it
  • I love kind people
  • I wish I could do yoga without hip pain. It looks so peaceful 
  • I have an affinity for finding good memes
  • I’m looking forward to turning 50

Maybe I’ll write more ramblings tomorrow. This feels like a good way to get back in the blogging game. 

It’s a Journey Not A Destination

My dad said it best….he said, “I’ll be glad to see 2016 go.” Lol.

This was a challenging year….let’s just leave it at that instead of listing all the woes this year hath wrought.

Some of my accomplishments from this past year: 1) I finally quit binge-smoking for good. I experienced some withdrawal headaches, and the memory of those headaches alone is an effective deterrent. 2) I started taking a magnesium supplement every night. This has helped me in numerous ways and I can do an entire blog entry on the benefits of magnesium in the future. 3) I got back on my daily iron, B-complex, multi-vitamin, Omega 3 supplements, and 4) I finally feel like I’m well enough to see my primary care provider and talk to her about starting to taper off my anti-depressant meds. That feels like a huge accomplishment to me. 5) I feel happy again. I feel positive and I feel capable.

My biggest priority now is continuing to change my mindset. I am focused on not lending any energy to negativity…to not let negativity have any space in my home or in my head….and if it creeps it, to make sure it doesn’t get comfortable and want to stick around. This is a big reason why I’m not making any New Year’s resolutions. I just want to focus on each day as it comes and feel good about each day as it comes to a close. I don’t want to derail my positive vibes if I “fall off” my resolution. Oh, and getting my A1c back down to a normal range is up there too with my priorities. But that will happen with the positive mindset.

I have a big puppy now. His name is Mickey and he was 1 year and 8 months when we met him. He’s a black lab, springer spaniel mix and he is beautiful. He has been a huge contributor to the positive mindset I started to build near the end of this past year. He is beyond cute. He is funny, he is sweet, he is affectionate….and we needed him as much as he needed us. We adopted him from a no-kill pet shelter in Ottawa, KS (Prairie Paws) and bringing him home in November I think was one of the best things we’ve done as a family. He keeps us active because he needs his exercise every single day, and I’ve experienced the stress relief of having him snuggle up next to me. You can literally feel the stress of the day melt away when you pet him.

My wellness journey, my seeking good health, has shown me that being healthy is indeed a journey. It’s not a destination. I’ll never be “there” when it comes to my health, because being healthy is a daily set of goals to be met. The good health is in the day-to-day…making that next best choice. And if you make the unhealthy choice, make the next choice the healthy one. Or make the choice as close to healthy as you can. Wellness does include goals…and when you reach them, you set a different goal in order to continue your journey. Wellness and health are dynamic….they are not static. They continually grow and evolve with us….with our age and with our circumstances. Being healthy is not a place to “get to”…it’s a space to live in each in every day. So I’m all about the journey….the today’s space….with my husband, my Swirlies and my Mickey at my side.

Learning Gratitude in 2014

Today is January 31 and tonight people will be celebrating the coming of the New Year. In typical New Year’s fashion, I am reflecting a bit on the past year. I love the beginning of the calendar New Year. People are motivated and hopeful….I’m not into the “New Year-New Me” kind of thing because I’ve learned that you can’t wait to make positive change, but I’m always happy to see people motivated. That positive energy is contagious.

I actually renewed my health goals at the beginning of December. I didn’t want to wait until New Year’s to do it. I wanted to get a jump start on what I want for myself and my family. I went back to Weight Watchers (which helped me lose 32 pounds in 2001-2002), and continued with my personal training sessions. I’m going to begin my New Year 7 pounds lighter as a result. I’m also going to begin 2014 feeling much better mentally, spiritually, and emotionally than the last 2 years.

The biggest contributor to the improved mental/spiritual/emotional condition in 2014 was actively practicing gratitude….consistently remembering to give thanks as soon as I wake up. We tend to think we are grateful for this life, but you notice a difference when you start to consciously develop the habit of saying “Thank you” and counting your blessings upon waking. It puts me in a positive frame of mind before I get out of bed. It generates positive energy. And like I said a few paragraphs ago, positive energy is contagious.

Gratitude brings positive energy….positive energy brings peace of mind and spirit….and that peace leaves room for the good stuff, like being happy for others and enjoying their successes. It also brings the belief that you can have your own success in whatever way you define that for yourself, and motivates you to take the steps to gain that success.

I do love this life and everyone in it. It’s amazing when I hear my children say at random times, “I’m thankful for…….” As I am re-learning gratitude, they are learning it as well. My Christmas gift from my babies was  bracelet with a charm that says, “I love you to the moon and back”, and it came on a card that said: Love this life….Love is about welcoming the blind turn and the possibility that there’s no such thing as coincidence….and that empathy is incredibly sexy….and that it’s never too late to pick up a guitar or a paintbrush…or to make an amend or to make a new friend….Love this Life.

Those are my thoughts this morning in my quiet house, while everyone sleeps…..while enjoying my coffee. Feeling grateful for all the blessings in my life.